The latter half of this week was tough. Considering school issues for my daughter is really stressful for me. But I want to do what is best for her. So I’ve decided to go to information nights on both charter schools in our area and visit the local elementary school as well as the local public school’s Montessori program. I feel like visiting these schools and considering home schooling will give me a well-thought-out basis to think about my options. And which option will be best for her.
I was really negative about it all at first because I really do feel pressured and I don’t like that. I feel like nobody is supportive of me home schooling, even though my kids have been home schooled thus far and are obviously incredibly bright. But of course I have nothing to do with that 
It just feels like I’m getting a lot of pressure and feeling like I’m depriving her for home schooling her.
I felt bad because the baby got a large dose of stress and negativity. I really want to try and relax and not get upset over things. One of the pregnancy books I reviewed recently had a section on dealing with stresses and figuring out what’s causing it, and I used some of that to realize I was feeling very trapped by the expectations of others. I still do. But I realized I can follow my game plan (visiting all schools and reviewing 1st grade home school curricula) and then go from there with a more balanced viewpoint. I may love one of the schools and feel she’ll thrive there. I may highly dislike one of them. But I’ll know better after I get to know the schools and then truly feel educated making a choice about her education 
It was going through those steps and realizing those things that helped me calm down and be able to look at this from a little bit less panic-y perspective.
In other news I’m about to hit “5 weeks” pregnant. I think it’s very amusing that I was pregnant two weeks before this baby was conceived. At least according to the medical profession’s dating of pregnancies
I’m feeling really good about the midwife. Scott talked to a co-worker who has had two babies with her there, and loved her. So I’m feeling more confident now and I’ll definitely give her a call next week.
I ordered The Pregnancy Journal
Next week is going to be a big week with calling the midwife and the baby wearing group is meeting and I’m going to try really, really hard to get to that. Hopefully we get the van registered here on Monday and can use it again (it’s still registered in the old state and the plates expired on Jan 30th, oy) – been waiting around on the title to arrive etc to register it. Which means everywhere we’ve gone as a family has been walking. Lucky for us most everything is close – the library, grocery store, and Scott’s work. But it’ll be good to take family outings a little farther again.
More later 
