It’s amazing how pregnancy makes you think – it’s especially obvious in a first pregnancy, when you have more time to sit around and think. But in every pregnancy you find yourself sitting back and thinking. Thinking about your baby, about yourself, about what you want to give your baby. About what you don’t want your baby to experience. About what you don’t want to experience.
Pregnancy makes women introspective. It’s just a time when you focus a little more on what’s going on inside of you. Your dreams even get more vivid.
I’ve found that this time around I’m so busy with things and have so much going through my mind that I don’t just sit and think as much. Or at least I haven’t. But now my little one is kicking. And tonight he or she is kicking up a storm. So much that I’ve found myself staring into space, hand on my belly, lost in thoughts of my baby, of my life. Of everything.
I sit and I feel awed that there is someone inside of me, kicking. Can you believe that? Sometimes it just hits me that there’s a tiny person in there, a person who will be born into a real baby, and turn into a real child, and then a real adult. A thinking, feeling being. It’s pretty amazing to think of creating life huh?
I think pregnancy is a good time to sit back and be thankful. It’s a good time to be awed. It’s even a good time to put some healthy fear into life. “Oh. My. Gosh. We’re going to have a baby. A real baby!” If you’ve caught yourself thinking that, don’t worry 
I sometimes find that in myself. And it’s a good thing.
All this thought, all this awe, all this fear – it motivates you truly think, truly plan, and to truly take action. Now is a good time to think about where you are in life and where you want to be. Of course you have to balance that with the fact that you’re going to be a mother. But now is a good time to set your priorities straight and to figure out just where you want to take yourself and your baby (and even your family, as is my case).
It’s amazing how such a tiny little being as a baby, such a tiny sensation as baby kicks can set off such intense thought and self-evaluation. But it’s also a valuable time. Use it – toy with those thoughts and think about the future you’re going build.
