Well today I feel confident enough to post this from the first trimester category!! I took yet another pregnancy test this morning and it was positive with a darker line. There’s no mistaking it.
I’m pregnant.
Wow.
Wow.
Wow.
Ok. But now. There’s so much to do, to think of!! I called my midwife yesterday, my midwife from down south who was there at the births of my older children. I wanted to let her know, get her input. She means so much to me 
She was excited for me and she was the first person I know “in real life” (not online) that I’ve told and it was exciting to be able to do that.
Now today I’m thinking more about preparations and AHHHHHH, there’s so much to think about! Thank goodness for 9 months.
Scott told one of his friends yesterday and today she called me to see if I want to go to the LLL meeting next Tuesday night. I would like to because I’d like to go with her. She also said it’s probably a good way to get the scoop on home birth midwives in this area, as I’ll definitely be planning another home birth. So I’ll hang around after the meeting to see if any of the mamas have had home births.
I’m excited to think about another birth because I’ve had such lovely births and birth is really a wonderful experience. Not easy, but good. And because this time around I actually get to use The Pink Kit, which is a childbirth course I have become a great believer in. It will be really good to get to record my experience with that in this blog
Today I am feeling a bit overwhelmed just with the immensity of “oh my gosh, I’m pregnant again!” and then I’ve just moved 1000 miles and my house is still chaos… and of course I have the children getting adjusted, and my oldest child adjusting which is harder for her than the boys I think. I worry so much I’m not doing a good job for her, but I really want to. /sigh. Lots of challenges.
I’m trying to remember that I consciously form our days, and my attitude, and that I just need to make sure I am conscious, and that I control how I feel. That even through challenges I can be positive, or take the time I need to make sure I can be positive. And I can take my afternoon nap!
As for the house…I’m leaning pretty heavily on to-do lists right now, lol! I think that’s a good thing when overwhelmed. At least for me. Is to put everything down on paper and work on it until I can cross it off. Today I’ve even numbered things. There are so many things it’s helpful just to put down numbers so I know what to do first, second, etc. It helps me stay calmer. And I really don’t want to get stressed out with a baby on board! I want this little one to have a peaceful 9 months floating around down there.
Did I mention I’m actually pregnant!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday night I get to go to the LLL meeting and say “Hi, my name is Kristen, and I’m due October 25th.”
Hello, world, I’ve got a baby on board.
